Scarlet Writes

Before I gave birth to my little one, I had a very rosy picture of motherhood. I imagined that we'd live happily ever after and we'd be a complete family once the baby arrives. Everything seemed to be going well until the time we were at the hospital. But I had a reality check as soon as I came home and realised how my life had changed completely, in a way I could have never imagined. My little one has completed five months and in these five months, I have discovered how strong and determined I can be as a mother and at the same time I have realised how weak and fragile I am. I have been overjoyed with chora reaching his milestones while I have also spent some nights crying alone, staring at the ceiling for reasons that seem stupid on other nights. There have been times when I have been jealous of my husband simply because he can go out to work, have a drink with his friends without any guilt and come home near the midnight and carry on with his life as if nothing has c...

When he sleeps… I make some tea for myself and simply put my legs up on table and drink it slowly, hoping that he wouldn’t wake up before I finish my tea.  When he sleeps… I wash the nappies, fold the washed clothes and put it back in its place. When he sleeps… I try to read few pages and make an attempt to write my journal. When he sleeps… I try to get some sleep and most often fail to sleep for more than 15 minutes. When he sleeps… I endlessly scroll through my newsfeed on facebook and Instagram. When he sleeps.. I send ‘Hi’ messages to friends hoping to get a reply from someone who isn’t too busy at work. When he sleeps… I send memes to my husband so that we can laugh together when he comes back home. When he sleeps... I dream about the next weekend with my friends and family. When he sleeps… I stare at him and wonder how I created this beautiful human being. When he sleeps… I think about all the good things and the bad things that could ...

I gave birth to this adorable little boy on 2 nd  May this year and needless to say, my life has changed completely. Well, that’s something every mother says that her life changed completely when she gave birth to her child. To be honest, I never understood the gravity of that statement. There was a phase in my life when I thought motherhood was over hyped (whatever that means). To understand what it means to say life has changed completely, you actually have to live it. You can read books, read blogs on the internet, talk to the mothers but nothing, literally nothing prepares you for motherhood. Disclaimer: I am not trying to frighten to-be-moms but just sharing my experience to open discussion on joys and pains of motherhood. Also, if you think you are one of those people who will end up saying “as if she is the only who has become a mother”, may be this blog isn’t for you. Let me start with the joys of motherhood. As I write this blog, my mother is giving oil massage ...

Being pregnant is a beautiful experience. 32 weeks into my pregnancy and I have understood that it is a unique experience for every individual. But what seem common are discomfort, anxiety and excitement. May be? I have been meaning to write a post on pregnancy for a very long time. Even my otherwise ignorant husband suggested that I should write one. As I am in the third trimester, I believe now is the best time to write the post that I would love to read in future. So here is how I would like to remember my pregnancy… a.        Everyone has an advice about food When I say everyone, I actually mean everyone: from a random stranger to your colleagues to your relatives. Everyone has a piece of advice. Ginger is not good. Too much honey shouldn’t be consumed. Don’t eat Papaya. Eat banana. Avoid chilies, baby will not like it. Eat ice cream. ‘Gundruk khana hunna’ ‘Tama khanu hunna’. 32 nd week and I still can’t figure out what to avoid and what no...